Hell On Earth

I open my eyes, and rush to close them.
Remembering what happened the day before.
He hit me once and I was still standing.
He hit me again and I was on the floor.
I'm scared.

No No, I'm terrified of him.

I crawl out of bed making no noise.
Not making a sound as I gently walk on the old cherry wood floors.
Closing the door of the bathroom.
Making sure he can't hear it click.
I take off my shirt and all I see is red, black, and blue.
I'm disgusted with myself.
Why couldn't I be stronger, fight harder?

Why couldn't I?

I go downstairs and he's sitting at the table.
As I walk toward the chair, he pulls me down on top of him, and says 
he loves me.
He's sorry, and it's never gonna happen again.
He would ask me, " will be together forever right?"
Holding me tightly and gripping my shoulders, I say "of course we 
will, I love you too."

This isn't love. 

Never mistake something so happy, so pure, with 
something so cruel and hurtful.
Never ever mistake it,

It will cost you, your mind, body, and soul. 
Until u have nothing left.
Never.